Friday, June 1, 2012

Fairy Tales do come true!

Growing up I would watch 'romance' movies and hope that one day someone would love me like that. With the house I lived in and what money I 'didn't' have, guys didn't go for girls like me. And if a guy liked me it was usually to get some. I honestly didn't think that what I have now was ever in my future. 

The relationship between my husband and I has been tested, over and over again.  He can tell when my mood changes, when I'm having a low day...no matter how hard I try to conceal it.  I guess that's what happens when you're with someone for almost 18 years.  

I wonder sometimes what I would be like, who I would be, if it wasn't for Todd in my life.  On the other hand, I don't even want to think about it.  He is my saving grace everyday.  To have someone in my life who loves me so much makes me want to be a better person.  We bring out the best, and sometimes worst in each other...but it makes life interesting!  There were so many moments when I wanted to give up, throw in the towel...I'm done.  But then I think of Todd and the boys, the future we will be blessed with and I start to breathe again.  He's the breath of air I need to take when I'm drowning.  

When we met I instantly saw something true, kind and loving.  He wasn't like the rest of the guys.  He was the first to treat me with respect.  Every other guy I met did not hold me in high esteem. My high school days were one of the worst times in my life.  Miserable.  I felt worthless.  I remember the day we started dating and finally he asked me to be his wife.  My fairytale actually came true.  

I don't think he knew what was in the future for us.  If he did would he still have fell in love with me and married me?  That's what love is, well what I believe a part of it to be.  Loving someone unconditionally, despite their flaws.  We do that for one another.  He has his moments and I certainly have mine.  I find myself asking more often than not "Why is he with me?", "He could do so much better."  But then I think about all we've been through and my questions are answered.

Bipolar and depression are just pure darkness that can rip apart any relationship, no matter how strong.  We've survived and fought to keep our love strong.  I literally wouldn't be alive today if it wasn't for him.  This mental illness has taught us many lessons and has strengthened our relationship.  Living with Bipolar isn't easy for the individual who has it.  It gets even harder when family is involved.  For loved ones who are trying to understand, it's difficult.  And it's different from person to person.  There's no magic book that will tell you the answers or a pill that will make it all go away.  You have to accept it...and so does everyone in your life.  Just keep hope and faith strong...fairytales can come true.   Photobucket

18 pretty purplexing comments:

  1. what a great, and so honest, post! I was such a tomboy...I never dreamt of the fairy tale really. I didn't imagine my wedding or having babies, or anthing like that. And I never thought the knight would come charging in on his white steed and rescue me.
    And then I realized one day, as hubby pulled into the driveway in his white police cruiser, looking all sexy in his uniform.... Hey - sometimes you get it even when you weren't looking for it! LOL
    I'd like to think we saved each other.....and I guess that's the secret.

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    1. I was a tomboy but deep inside I wished for someone to take me away from the misery I felt.

      A man in an uniform is ALWAYS sexy! So why was a policeman pulling in your drive way? Did you have a warrant out for your arrest? LOL

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    2. nah.....he'd forgotten his badge and gun!! can you believe that?. Like how was he gonna arrest anyone that night? LOL.

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  2. What a beautiful post Tami, that is a true love story. I appreciate you being so open and giving us a glimpse into your life. I am sure it has never been easy managing your depression, I am no stranger to it that's for sure.
    I am glad you got your fairytale in the end...

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    1. Depression is a cruel burden. One that you have to crawl your way out of a deep dark hole. I wouldn't wish that feeling on anyone; however, it is nice knowing someone understands. :-)

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  3. I love a good love story--especially when it involves a very deserving woman :-)

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  4. What a sweet, sweet tribute to true love.

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  5. What a beautiful love story! Sometimes they are there when you are least looking for them. And 18 years later he is still there

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    1. I wasn't looking for love when Todd came along. I was so tired of being stomped on. He showed me how worthy I am of being loved.

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  6. Tami, this is so raw and beautiful. And the song is awesome. I hadn't heard it before but I love it. A different side to Katy Perry. And I think, she is right... if it's not like the movies, it's the way it should be. Life is not a perfect movie with a perfect happy ending... it's what we make of it.

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    1. The song spoke to me. I really could relate to it and it inspired me to writing the post. Thank you for your kind words.

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  7. Amazing post, I have bipolar depression and hubs has a brain injury and if we hadn't taken the time to truly accept and love one another, I don't think we'd be here today. Great song and wonderful honesty! :)

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  8. Would you come enter my photography challenge Aunt Tami!! PLEASE! You will enjoy the theme!
    Thank you!

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    1. I will tell Uncle Todd about the challenge. He is the photographer in the family. Thanks for the invite Kari.
      xo
      ~Aunt Tami

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  9. You have a quality about you that is worth loving...you are worth loving and deserve the fairy tale....I'm glad your prince charming found you....but you were meant to be care for and loved like a princess. Nobody is perfect...we all have our faults but perfect is boring! Love this video...so true! Have a wonderful weekend! xo

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    1. Jeez oh man Kathy, you made me cry! And I just put on my mascara too!
      Seriously though, thank you so much for your kind words. They touched me and I really do have tears. Happy tears.
      Have a good weekend too!
      xoxo

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